hi X)

hi!
blog..
l0ng time n0 see..
miss me??
haha..
im s0 lame..

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1st..
thank g0d 4 letting me survive til t0day..
i appreciate it..
A LOT

afta attending my c0usin's wedding..
i mean afta see-ing da wh0le pr0cess..
fr0m da dae my dad fetch my uncle n his wife+my c0usin t0 pick up my c0usin's wife at KLIA..
until da dae they c0me back t0 KL all da way fr0m j0h0r(i thnk)t0 settle thngs dat they hav t0 settle..
yup..
and da wedding was.. okayy

i mean..
i juz realise hw hard it is 4 my parents t0 raise me up..
im 16 yrs old n0w and afta 10 yrs my parents will be 50+ already..
i want t0 be a successful w0man at that time s0 i can giv my parents a better life in da future..

we sat wif my 3rd uncle's fam during da wedding.. dinner.. nite.. wateva.. (plz 4giv my po0r eng)
his s0ns is d0in very well in their studies..
thr is 3 of them..
im vry sure they can giv their parents a better life in da future!!

what abt me??
wh0 am i??
im n0thng~ yet..

im vry sl0w in learning subj lik add math..
i l0ve sc0uting m0re than studying..
i thnk i shld put ******** aside..

i dun0 if im thnking to0 much or what..
but im really w0rry abt dis thng named FUTURE
im scared >.<

i will w0rk hard..
i need t0 w0rk hard..
t0 giv my parents a better life in da future..

en

failed..

i fail in explaining dis thng to da kids..


n i hav difficulties in talking n communicating to them..



although i always go f0r camps..



im no0b..

thats all f0r t0dae..
thank you

dream come true..

-i dreamt abt alex n rach walking t0getha during pelantikan.. it c0me true..
-my dream came true n it is funnay^^
-i din expect myself to gt any positions..
-fuu so touched afta dat..
-its lik v hv gr0w up in a sudden..
-n da seniors r leaving us so so soon ='(
-fuu so sad when i thnk of dis although im nt close to evry1 of them><

i l0ve evry1 hu appear in my life b4..

will remember..

thx 4 evrythng.. i l0ve my fam^^

when somethng seemed to be right went wr0ng

-caught dis gal hu br0ught phone t0 sch
-she ask me n0t t0 hand it to da teacher on da spot n start telling st0ries..
-even after 1st head prefect asst tell me what to do im still standing ther, listening to her stories
-until when hooi shin pull mii away fr0m her n asked mii nt to b0ther dat gal
-i cant believe dat i sto0d ther listening t0 her st0ries n bliev her st0ry to0
-luckily hooi shin is ther..
-im s0 easily in putting my trust==

-i told dis to my fam during dinner
-and warnings fr0m my dad n mum n br0 landed at my ears
-dis is called mumbling afta few minutes
-okayy.. im so blurr..
-i did s0methng wr0ng huh??

y0u.. hurt me da m0st..

euu always want me t0 be the best when you are n0t..
euu always want me to do the right when euu did wrong..

i brought euu fame..
bt it seems to be nothing because it comes from me..

euu never ask if i am happy..
euu juz thnk dat euu gave me anythng i want..
yeah..
evrythng is jz 'euu thnk'..

i wont complain if my phone is 2nd handed frm my br0 or my dad..
i jz couldnt believe that my sch bag is given by otha ppl..
my bottle is a lucky draw frm da scouts night..
n euu r angry of me going to dat event..
i jz duwan to b lik him..
he wil jz ask money.. requesting dis n dat..
goin out without telling euu..
acting to b a gud boy in front of euu..
n he is a gud boy??

what the hell is that??
im facing dis thng which makes me feel unbalance n i hv to face it in sch too??
jz send me to hospital sakit jiwa..
i thnk i wil thank euu a lot..

depressi0ns x.X

my dream huh??

i want t0 be a KING SCOUT..

it seems t0 be s0 far away fr0m me..

or it will only be a dream.....??

GOD.. please let this dream c0me true..

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im s0 s0 easy t0 gt dis em0 thng recently..

i thnk i really need my specs t0 be repaired..

im s0................................................. lonely.